lizwig,
I do want to hurt him. your right, I don't want him but I don't want anyone else to have him. It seems that there is no closure to this.... it just goes on and on. (not being hateful) but I think it would be way easier if he died....at least then there would be an end
I want to reject him, u are right. I want the right to abandon him like he did us. I do know that it just fuels the fire even more when the kids cry. I am constantly picking up there pieces and drying there tears.... It is exhausting...