You say it was fun and full of positive people? Yet you worry they are dragging your name through the mud? Really? Which is it? Love/Hate relationship - sounds like a crappy place to work with the walk of shame scenario. Things happen for a reason, we just don't see it at the time. Met a woman once who was diagnosed with breast cancer - she was so upset and had to get surgery. During the surgery they found out she had advanced lung cancer (which caused the breast cancer). If they hadn't found the breast cancer - she would have died. She survived - and was glad to have a breast cancer diagnosis. Maybe God is trying to give you a wakeup call. Losing a job from your drinking might be the push you need to stop finally - before something WORSE happens ....................there is worse and lower bottoms with alcohol.