Originally Posted by
allthatsgood 
I hope you will explore for yourself the best way to take care of you in all this
I have Spiderqueen....I am done. I need to move on and away from all of this.
I understand that feeling of bottoming out. It hurts like crazy. And also feels like a weird, empty void.
For me, it was necessary to hit that point, in order to truly recognize my lack of control over my loved one's addiction, and all the awful destruction and disappointment that came with it.
I'm glad you are here, reaching out for yourself. Take good care.