Welcome, there are lots of moms here. You are not alone. I drank for relief from taking care of everyone else's needs, too. (I have four kids) However, lately (after 46 glorious days of being sober -Sober is better, I promise you, even sex is better and I wouldn't have thought that) I started wondering why I gave myself the short end of the stick, the tiniest sliver of the pie. "My thing" was drinking. Wow. Is that what I wanted to be defined by/known for?? What was I teaching my kids by giving myself alcohol as my big prize in life?!? Someone challenged me to 30 days sober on this forum. I love a challenge, so I took it and now, at 46 days I hope to never look back. Read all over this forum. You will learn so much and your perspective will change. Good luck and know that you deserve more than you are giving to yourself.