Thanks mecanix!
I know what I need to do. And so far it's been working.. like they say "It works if you work it; so work it, 'cause you're worth it."
Regardless of our substance of choice whether it be Alcohol or Amphetamines, it all brings us to that place of utter desperation, incomprehensible demoralization, guilt, paranoia, depression, and so on and so fourth.