I think I tried too hard in a way. I tried to excersise a lot and eat really healthy cutting down on sugar. I was too hard on myself, trying to make my life perfect. This time I will focus on the sobriety and eat whatever I like and give myself a break. I feel really bad about my weight but going on a diet AND quitting drinking just doesnīt work for me.
As for formal recovery methods I have not tried AA. Maybe I should. I have been reading a lot here and tried to work out a plan. In the beginning I thought moderation would be possible but am realizing that drinking just isnīt for me. And I am not scared about the "never drink again"-concept as I was in the beginning. I just feel relief when I think about a life in sobriety. Now I just have to remember this every single day and realize every situation I face, weather it is a celebration or a difficult time, they can be handled in other ways without alcohol.