Hi Dee74, thank you for the welcome, i am already feeling better reading these responses.
Its so nice to talk to people who truly know what i'm going through, whether its related to horses or not.. its recovery underneath it all!
I am going through the big book with my sponsor, at what i feel is a snails pace.. only meeting once a week, with a group of girls.. and we have'nt gotten to the steps yet. She keeps talking about the 4th step, where i'll get some relief.. but at this pace, we are MONTHS away from that.
I completely with agree with what you said 22NGone, "Don't think about what you used to be able to do but can't... " I am totally doing that. I have 2.5 years with this horse, and now it feels like I've never been on a horse in my life. I feel like an alien up there. We just aren't speaking the same language.. Its horrible, and I get SO mad.. b/c where did it all go??