CoCo8:
You feel rejected and rightfully so--your father basically did just that to you and your mother and your feelings are justified. You need to make connections with others in the same situation instead of turning to alcohol. My first suggestion is if you have a good relationship with your mother, start there. She is also feeling rejected and you two can help each other through this. Also, try Al Anon. Finally, get one very close friend who you can confide in and talk to this person. Ask them to be available to you when those feelings hit you so instead of drinking you call this person instead. You have the right to feel the way you do. He caused this and completely walked away from his family. Don't ever let yourself think you are not good enough for him--He is not good enough for you!