It blows my mind to go back and read through this thread.
I mean. Wow.
It takes me back and I can feel some of the sting and the elation through the different periods.
As for now, life is amazingly good. Im no rockstar but I have a decent enough job that supports me. I share a cute home with some awesome roomies. I am sober. (That in itself is amazing.) I have people who love me.
My life is rather quiet. I have smaller shifts now. I still love AA and all that it has brought me, which is everything I have today. Being quietly content is more than I thought was possible.