As someone who is here for family and friends support, I can tell you from the other side of the fence, you will earn more love and respect from those you have hurt, just by becoming better. It is your road to change for you, not for anyone else. It is a long road, one you will never be alone on, and I personally thank you for posting this. I wish you the best, theres a bright light at the end of that tunnel, just keep heading for it.