Dear HBbreummer, the most direct and immediate help you can get is by calling the N ational Domestic Abuse Hotline---and simply tell them what you have told us. You will find them to be very kind and understanding--and, everything is held confidential.
They have all the resources that you will need at their fingertips. They can help you develop a "plan"---and this can include legal counseling which you are going to need. They can help with safe housing, job training and placement, food, etc. If you need a plan to leave safely--they can walk you through that and give you shelter at an unknown location. They can help with court matters and restraining orders, etc...
Their job is to help you.
When you are in a safe place to use the phone--please, please, make that first call. The will not force you to do anything you do not want to.
We are here for you also--you are not alone.
The second step--after dv contacts would be to seek out alanon meetings for yourself, also. The dv centers will know about this, also.
There is help for you--your situation is NOT hopeless--and you don't have to stay stuck.
I know it is scary to make that "first move", but the courage will come at the exact time you need it--you will see.
Please keep posting here--there will be lots of people to help you and are rooting for you!!
dandylion