So you were all right!!
I'm back. Day two now, moderation totally doesn't work. It started well but slowly crept up and i now am ready to admit that total sobriety is the only way forward for me. Am i sad that there will be no more ice cold wine, yeah a little i am, but more excited to get back the inner peace that i was feeling without it for six weeks. And at least this time i won't trick myself that i've done so well i can moderate, because i totally can't.
I hope i'm still welcome