Hawkeye13 - That is a very valid point. This is all so ironic as my father is an alcoholic as well. He does not drink when he is in chemotherapy (like now), but I know he was still drinking when he was in remission for a year. We are very similar in many ways it seems. You would think I would learn.
Anna/DoubleDragons - I'm starting to see it best to cut her out. The thing that keeps me coming back is our mother. She wants us to be as close as we once were. We are twins after all. I just don't think I can do it with her in my life.
Renarde - It always comforts me to see your comments in my threads. Rehab and therapy is out of the question right now since I do not have health insurance and am in deep debt. These boards and AA are my only options right now.