Old 11-02-2013, 08:44 PM
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Mightyqueen801
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Originally Posted by thislonelygirl View Post
you know this post got me thinking about what holidays ah hasn't ruined.....hmm...im still trying to think lol. The worst memories are of our child's first birthday i caught him involved with another woman (Hooker,skank, Trash lol there was nothing lady about her!) another was christmas i was sick and he refused to let me sleep because he "couldn't" sleep he was being a bully, i cried and he called me names. there were others where he completely took off and disappeared on me getting plastered with who knows who, doing who knows what and coming home a complete grouch. ofcourse he's cut himself,hurt himself etc on accident because he was soooooo drunk he couldn't function properly. hes spent large amounts of money on the holidays, he's been embarrassing and rude and he's made special occasions between just him and i into me by myself and him passed out on the floor laying in his own drool. I try to focus on just my kids and not my ah or make plans with ah anymore for those reasons. now i say its about me and the kids, ah just happens to be here.....if he goes to sleep yay!!

oh and my birthday this year which was super special for more than just my birthday my ah completely and utterly ruined by getting hammered, taking off and then being a d***. i cried then too!!
Oh dear God, how those buried memories arise and make me cringe.

On our daughter's first birthday, I had a backyard party planned at my mom's house--she had the space. Stupid Drunkass Husband was told that I would be at my mom's getting everything ready and would come back (we lived half an hour from my mother) and pick him up--please be ready--swing by the bakery, pick up the cake, and be off to the party. All he had to do was be ready to be picked up.

I got back to my house to find him on the living room floor watching a porn flick. Yes, five o'clock on the afternoon on the day of our daughter's first birthday and that's what he was all about. I said, "Are you READY" and get this--GET THIS--he says, "why don't you take a few minutes and just sit down with me here?" Yes, folks. Our baby girl's first birthday--an entire family waiting to get a party going--and this friggin loser waste of a human being has sex and porn on his mind. Unbelievable.

It was one of those moments when I knew-KNEW-that our marriage was already hopeless.
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