I'm with you on that Pt
I'm also in AA but believe that everyone has their own path. In finality it comes down to honesty with yourself. 1000 people can tell you what a slip, hiccup, or relapse means to them but what's more important is what it means to you.
When you ask yourself the question is the outcome how you really feel or are you just trying to make yourself feel better about it?
Again, total honesty.