Originally Posted by
behindblueyes 
I worry and beat myself up so much. I have not been out of bed and went an entire day with no food. I didn't drink but didn't want to face what happened was true. I am up for the first time very early. The time I would get ready for work. I wake up, panic about it and humiliation sets in, then I go back to bed. That cycle repeated for 30 hours.
People saw me crying and that place is full of gossip so I know my name is being drug thru the mud. It didn't help that I was escorted out like a criminal and humiliated which I think is the worst. I just don't want anyone talking about me or remembering me this way. I am confused by the fact that I was told I would be sent home for the day then all the sudden I had my badge and everything taken off me. I wouldn't really want to go back but it took me months to find this job. Yes it was my dream job because I was getting physically fit and losing weight plus it was just full of positive people. I loved going in there.
No sense in beating yourself up. Unexpected things happen in life whether fair or not you just have to pick yourself up, dust off and move on.
I worked my butt off for this Banquet hall for the entire Spring season one year and just when it slowed down they laid me off. I was salaried and they knew they would have to pay me to sit home half the week in the summer. The unfairness was, I worked 70 to 80 hour weeks when it was busy and only got paid 40 hour checks. I figured only fair to work 20 to 30 hour weeks for a while and recoup. They thought otherwise as all shrew business people think.
I immediately called an old Chef buddy and was working again before I could even collect. The moral here is that I didn't let the jerk who laid me off get me down, I knew he was wrong but I just moved forward instead of dwelling.
You need to try to do the same now, get up and get out. Enjoy the day and browse around town for places you might like to inquire for employment.
As I said in the last post, they don't deserve you and you deserve better.