Sounds to me like you have to avoid alone time at all costs in the beginning of your sobriety. Grocery stores/Wal-marts/coffee shops/McDonalds and getting on this forum which is open 24/7 any time a craving hits. Stop knee-jerk reactions. When a craving hits, observe it, what does it feel like physically? Where in your body are you feeling your craving? For me, that helps depersonalize the craving, seeing it as separate, for the beast it really is . . . . My last big craving was last weekend. I confessed to my October classmates that I was going through it and I realized subconsciously I had been thinking about it for days. Confessing before I did the deed, kept me accountable and I was able to stay sober. You can do this! Stay strong!