I worry and beat myself up so much. I have not been out of bed and went an entire day with no food. I didn't drink but didn't want to face what happened was true. I am up for the first time very early. The time I would get ready for work. I wake up, panic about it and humiliation sets in, then I go back to bed. That cycle repeated for 30 hours.
People saw me crying and that place is full of gossip so I know my name is being drug thru the mud. It didn't help that I was escorted out like a criminal and humiliated which I think is the worst. I just don't want anyone talking about me or remembering me this way. I am confused by the fact that I was told I would be sent home for the day then all the sudden I had my badge and everything taken off me. I wouldn't really want to go back but it took me months to find this job. Yes it was my dream job because I was getting physically fit and losing weight plus it was just full of positive people. I loved going in there.