Gothbarbie, im so sorry for what you are going through. My daughter is a heroin addict. She is only 20. The pain she is putting me and my family through I would not wish on my worst enemy. They manipulate, lie, cheat, say the most horrible hurtful things, play on your fears and insecurities, and would throw you to the wolves in a heartbeat to get their next fix. You ARE able to walk away and have your own healthy life. You are not married or have children with him correct? You do not have to live with this for the rest of your life. You can recover from this. You CANNOT fix him! He has to fix himself.