You're not totally alone, Roomy.
Are you currently free of the drink?
I find that once it's been taken away, there is an acute sense of loneliness - and I'm married with two kids, so god knows there's no reason to feel lonely, but I am, and that's all there is to it.
I'm still waiting to find a away out of this that does NOT involve alcohol. I'm not about to pick up as I know it won't help. Maybe you are just waiting for something to come along and pick you up?
I'm feeling unwell at the moment, so that doesn't help, but it should get better soon enough.
Just hold on there as long as you can.
Life can be pretty boring.