Erik I hope you hang in there. This is my 4th time on the wagon and each time got worse and worse. The more I feel better the more I know I will never go back. Actually too scared to go back. If I don't drink again I will never have to feel the withdrawals again. Of course there are horrible days but I have hope for the next day and keep pushing through. I hope for you. Charliee I always drank alone too, and liked it that way. Alone drunk with my thoughts and only me to listen to myself. Rough road. "Time is the beauty of the road being long". Why I found helpful is to jam all your fears into a half our have your daily panic and know you're scared crapless then say screw it the rest of the day, if that makes any sense.
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