I hear ya man I'm a bartender too. It's easy to get caught up in the industry lifestyle and have it run away with you. Today is my first day sober. Lost one of my jobs sat because I was hammered at work. Woke up still drunk sun, had a couple shots to stave off the withdrawals, almost lift my other job, then proceeded to stay in my apartment for the past 3 days going through withdrawals. This is when I finally realized I need to quit, my body and my personal life can no longer take it. I hope I don't have a problem Bartending and staying sober.