Cos I have a few days of FALSE FREEDOM.......
Giving up for good it is a very hard and important decision...
I take it I must maintain it...
I have been trying to keep away for a long time now...
and want to take bc I know I have to stop.
I like it or Not
I am not ready, on the 7th I will I have to...
but I am hurting myself a few days more and will stop..
I can not stop my life literally so
will have to call it a day and give up definetly...
Maybe one day I will reading this back...
What an Idiot I was...
But how lucky I was...