I want to add that I wear my heart on my sleeve now. I tell people, that what he does shouldn't have a reflection on me. Most people agree with me. Most people that I share with also have there own problems they share. It makes life so much easier to be able to be honest. I need to be as i'm a recovering addict myself. I have learned that being brutally honest with myself and others is essential.
From reading some of your past posts, I can see that this has been a real struggle for you for a long time. Let your emotions be felt. Process them. They are important and I encourage you to open up and not feel shameful or embarrassed. It has helped me greatly being able to share. Sometimes I feel somewhat judged, but then they share their story. It helps me.