Hopefulbinger,
I concur with the others. Sobriety is something you have to work at. In my case, I didn't have a lot going at the time. I was broke, my wife had left me, and I fell into a deep, deep spiral. I nearly lost everything before I found AA and online places like this one, though I am also new here. There is no secret to sobriety other than to recognize that everyday without a drink is a victory, and as you continue to build those victories they can start to become easier. Don't forget that as bad as it may seem now, you have people who care about you, and I hope places like this can provide you the help and guidance you need to make it through this difficult period.
Keep coming back.