Back to day 3... again
Thought I could make it through some weddings/ bachelorette parties, etc and I was wrong. Now I have been wasted at least 3 times this month and I am feeling like a douche. I missed work on Saturday. I was so lucky I found someone to cover my shift, because I don't know what I would have done. I was so sick there was no way I could have gone in. Now I am nervous to go in to work today to see if anyone says anything about it. When I first started this job I was not drinking. I started again while I was there and now a few people have seent the wreck I can be when I drink. It is so embarassing.
Anyway, I started keeping a journal about how I am feeling (awful) so that maybe next time I am feeling like it would be ok to drink I will read it over and remember that it won't be ok. I'm not an OK drinker and I can't let me trick myself into thinking I am.
Day 3, feeling down, but I guess happy to be back to working on myself. This time, I hope, for good.