Sounds like maybe it's time for you to ask yourself, "Why do I want to continue to torture myself with these emails?"
I was always told, "If you stand in the mud long enough - your gonna get stuck"
(( 6 Year Mark )) sounds like a pretty solid word in your book. Obviously it's an emotional trigger for you. We have to learn our triggers, and change lanes. If not, we crash!
Delete that crap! - Doesn't sound like it's doing you any good, it's no fun to crash!