Originally Posted by
LadyinBC 
I remember in the last part of my drinking, that terrible feeling of I can't stop and I don't know if I even want to stop. I definately enjoyed the buzz and the feeling the booze gave me.
At the end of the day I had to get to the point where I wanted to be sober more than I wanted that buzz. This journey is not easy for anyone, I had to change people, places, things and they way I thought and did things. The one way thinking had to go out the window so to speak.
But how did you crave the feeling when you were alone? My biggest issue is that the majority of my drinking is done in my home and to add to that none of my friends are big drinkers. My coworkers are the same. They are all very intelligent people who just drink on occasion. The fact that I can come in and perform on par with them is a bit of a facade tbh.