..and I am feeling better than I have in at least a year!
I have turned 25. I am back at university and enjoying being there without feeling nauseous, tired, and wanting to leave as soon as possible, to drink more or go to bed. My mind is much clearer. I feel positive (most of the time) and focused. My skin is almost glowing! I have started jogging and exercise classes, trying to respect my body a little more. No more nosebleeds.
I have also been channeling my energy into something productive: instead of thinking about alcohol all of the time, how to avoid it or what to do instead of drinking I think "tomorrow I want to get up at X time with a clear mind to do this job". I am trying to see alcohol as not something to be MISSED or something to DENY myself but something that is counterproductive to the positive things I can be doing with myself instead. Something to be happy to be without. I think before I really wanted the distraction of alcohol, to keep my mind numbed.
I just wanted to come here and say thank you to everyone who has helped me here before and also to provide a little bit of strength for tomorrow: I haven't been "out" for the 3 weeks and I am meeting friends in a place that sells alcohol tomorrow afternoon. Although it is unlikely they will be drinking, I am worried there might be "pangs" of want, which I haven't felt this time round. I normally would have caved in on day 2-3-5-7-14. I think this is the longest in the 6 or so years I've known I've had a problem I haven't craved alcohol.
Progress
