To delete or not to delete - that IS the question
I am three months into No Contact with Ex-AB. Next week, would have been our 6 year anniversary of meeting him. The first 2 1/2 years were mostly peaceful and lovely. The rest; not so much. We spent the first half of our relationship long distance and I have hundreds of emails that document our love.
I also have hundreds of emails that document his alcoholism.
I go over them sometimes; like an archaeologist, digging for "The Answer".
I am thinking I need to delete the entire history of emails. What is holding me back? Sometimes I think I need to hold on to the ones that were so rude and cruel to me, to remind me, lest he appears in my life with sweet talk. Sometimes, I think I just need to trust my memories and intuition and delete the entire folder of our history.
It's hard, it makes me sad. But I want to remove them before the 6 year mark.
Your thoughts?