I have no way of being able to express what it's like to be me , the fully nuanced me . Even my parents who know me best still don't know me. I'm not sure i fully know me , i change depending on where i am and in which situation , i can tell you generalities but how useful is that ?
So i have no way of telling you my experience , you have no way of understanding it , there cannot be a comparison with no common point of reference .
I read 100's of books on self help and phillosophy quite a few religeous texts , i found no answers , in the end i forgot any questions i might have had , i have no questions about life just an experience . I have food in my belly and a roof over my head as much as any person in this world could reasonably expect . Just drop all of it and have a nice life
Bestwishes, m