10/24/13
Well.... I have been around these boards for a while... but I am new to this whole thing. I've failed myself time and time again. But I'm going to make this happen one way or another.
The date is my new date yet again. I've had new dates for as long as I can remember now and to be quite honest with you, I'm sick and tired of continually switching the date. I'm ready to be done and deal with life on lifes terms... period.
I've probably said something very similar for many, many, many months so who knows what I'll do... but I have to take everything day by day.
Each month, I get more and more jealous of the others before me that have been successful when I haven't been. I know its not the right way to look at things, but I do.
I've had a problem with percocets and even before that it was alcohol. I just want to be done and done for good.
I don't know what my problem is... every time around day 15, I just cave. I really don't know what it is. Has anybody else experienced this?
Well, thanks for listening and 'just for today'.