Originally Posted by
cjp45 
She's a doctor herself and is very concerned about this being on my medical record, both for my sake and for our son's. This last failure does make me wonder though.
At the end of the day you need to do what is best for you and what keeps you sober. If going to a doctor or counselor helps, that is what you need to do. This disease thrives on secrecy and on staying "hidden". The worst really has happened you lost your job. I am so sorry about that. You are no good to your family drunk and this disease just "doesn't go away".
Depression is horrible and I have been thru that myself. You will find lots of support here.