Anoronha,
I am in the same boat as you... I have not had enough.
I have not hit really rock bottom... and think others are worse...
and that is why I can not get out... cos I have not fall enough to understand that I have to give it up...
But then again... I read no long ago and made a bit of sense in my short mind:
Rock bottom is when something happens/situation...
that Makes you be Receptive to Change...
So I gather out that:
Rock bottom is not only loosing your job, your partner, your family, home,...
Is when you realize you are in a well and can not crall out...
It is when you see the light and realize you have a problem and you need to change...
You are here that means you are receptive...
You have a sponsor to help you get through...
My sphyco told me:
I was lucky nothing has happened yet!
What is it you want? to have an accident and get paralized or head injured,
get esquizofrenia ...
and then you can say...
You see I hit rock bottom I am going to stop now...
Is it not more intelligent to quit whilst you are still healthy...
Cos there is no way back after that point...
Really Really Think about it...
I am doing it...
Hope you cross to the other side and the light makes you Receptive.