In 2003 I didn't want to stop because I felt I was not that bad. I did not, at that time, want to admit I was an alcoholic. I said it but I did not feel it nor accept it.
It took nine years for me to get back to AA. I may still have one more drink in me but I do not have another recovery in me and I think that is one thing you may want to consider. The courage it takes to try again was hard. I was afraid to fail again and it is one more regret in my past that I had to face and let go of. I kicked myself a lot over it.
I think there are windows of opportunity that open and if I had been in the rooms I might have gotten it last time but I left before that could happen.
Remember it is progressive. You are not going to drink for another ten years and be where you are now. What I wanted (needed) to drink ten years ago for a week would not have lasted a day at the end.