Hi Anoronha. I never got a DUI or lost much externally. I was shaky in the morning but not "that" bad. I love being sober but I too have the same stupid thoughts about drinking again. They are just thoughts based on 20 years of hard-wiring my brain to crave alcohol. I find it best to stop the thought right away. If you feel you must entertain the thoughts, I suggest you do so with your sponsor.
I get pretty annoyed when I have these thoughts because I was extremely miserable in my last years of drinking, even though I never hit a serious bottom losing everything or ending up in the hospital, etc.
In my AA meetings, no one who has gone back out and then returned said it was worth it.