Things I tell myself
So lately I keep thinking to myself though I love recovery and have many sober friends. That I have more drinking years left that I haven't truly hit rock bottom like other drunks I didn't have the shakes or get a DUI or lose s lot. I am 29 years old. I keep thinking I have another 10 years left to drink then I can join AA this is really ****** up thinking. I just had an extremely high bottom. I was miserable though hiding in my room every night drinking by myself and hiding it from my parents and lying to them. I just can't shake this thought out if my mind and I know it is stupid and irrational that ihave still have many drinking years left till I truly hit rock bottom. My sponsor says have I ever thought about the fact that I may never make it back to AA if i go out again.