Txhelp I am really sad after reading your story
it is obvious that this man loves you, but you have to do what is right for you right now. I understand those mixed emotions you speak of. One day I could conquer the world and don't need my man, the next day I want to give him a great big cuddle and take his problems away. I would do anything to fix him - but we must remember that spending all our energy trying to fix them, will in turn break us. As you know this is all new to me as u commented on my first post ever, yesterday.I just wanted u to know that I feel ur pain and I really hope ur hubby can get the help he needs to climb firmly back on the wagon so u two can continue on ur journey through life together.x