1step and Brooksie - right there with ya. In fact I was just having these thoughts yesterday! I try to remind myself daily if my many blessings... Family, home, job, friends etc. I even have hobbies I enjoy... Scrapbooking, reading, outdoors etc. and yet I find myself being bored, unsettled. I ask myself 'is this it?' I jut feel like I'm missing something or I don't know I just feel a void maybe?
It's very hard to explain and I get frustrated with myself. I'm not a fan of self pity and when my kids tell me 'I'm bored' I tell them 'you don't get to be bored. As long as you have thoughts in your head you can go anywhere you want!' Guess I need to take some of my own advice?
Seriously though.... Why do I feel so unsatisfied? If I allowed myself to drink tonight I would get giddy with excitement. My husband has told me he saw the switch in me just anticipating the drink.
So I sobriety is it a different kind if happy? I know drinking did not make me happy past those moments of the first couple drinks. But did all thy drinking ruin any chance of finding true happiness sober?
I will say this. I'm content in sobriety. I have peace of mind and clarity and all of that. But there is this nagging unsettled feeling...