Welcome DeadToYou! I'm glad you wanted to discuss this. I wish I'd taken an honest look at what alcohol was doing to my life when I was in my 20's.
I knew early on I didn't drink like other people I knew. They could have a couple and be fine. Once it got in my system I didn't know what the outcome would be. I once binged on weekends like you - but over the years my drinking progressed. It took more & more to achieve the same result. The weekend drinking eventually became every night - and in the end, all day. I never would've imagined I'd be so dependent on it. I'm not saying that would be you - only you can know how it's affecting your life - but you are wise to be asking these questions. I hope you'll keep posting.