It sounds like you're right where you're supposed to be. I was just saying something to my therapist about I don't know who I am. I'm 29 but I started drugs and alcohol young, became a mom young and was in a terrible marraige. Its only now that I'm just being me and trying to figure out what me is. To others I have a very boring uninteresting life. To me I find it peaceful working on my life and me. I'm not here for others entertainment. And you're not either. You seem very focused on recovery and that's very interesting and beautiful.