Originally Posted by
alphaomega 
I instinctively know that there truly is no turning back now.****{shudder}}}
This is what I think every successfully sober person experiences - they believe this as much as they believe the sun will pop over the eastern horizon tomorrow morning. No reservations, qualifications, or stories about it - it just isn't possible to drink anymore.
In December it will be four years for me, and I am writing this while sitting in the same chair that I had this epiphany. I was drunk at the time, but I realized that I would spend the rest of my days in an ever worsening spiral if I continued to drink. At that moment, death was preferable to what I anticipated if I couldn't quit.
Some might consider keeping that memory fresh as morose or negative. For me, it is a truth that I cannot afford to ignore or forget. The times when I was tempted, this memory served me well.