Jounrey
25 plus years ago, my father came home from the hospital from having a stroke. He was a heavy drinker and smoker. (12-15 beers daily 4-5 packs of smokes daily) The day he came home from the hospital, he went over to the local store and picked up his usual 40oz of his favorite but cheap beer. Took it out to the shed, got out his mason jar and pour him a cup. Right then and there he noticed something different about himself he wasn't shaking any longer, his taste buds were not watering for that drink. He realize it was just the thoughts in his heads telling him to drink it. He put that glass down and walked away.. My father died three years ago from lung and panceric cancer. The doctor said he probably won't have made it as long as he did if he didn't give up the drinking when he did. You see my dad was a young 63 when he passed, he started drinking at 15. Yet 10 years ago I started drinking heavily, my father seen it in me..He told me that story and showed me the mason jar in the shed with the 40oz bottle with the beer still in it, the bottle and the jar covered in years of dust.
Last Sunday when I blacked out and waking up on Monday so sick and with chills I went back to that story about my dad and realize if I don't stop now I could be him. He was right, I don't shake any longer, my mouth doesn't water for that drink after a week of not drinking. It is the AV in my head telling I need it not my body. Sometimes in life you need a little wake up call to make you realize how precious your life really is.