Sicknote:
When you find you're kicking yourself in the butt, saying that you're "no good", a "loser", etc. etc. why not try this? Ask yourself where this is coming from. Maybe somewhere inside your brain where something is saying, "Hey, maybe if we can persuade her to lose faith in herself, persuade her that she's "worthless", then maybe she'll start drinking again, maybe we'll get the booze back! Worth a try! Let's get her back on the pitty pot so she'll be a sitting duck the next time she goes to a party and someone says, "Just one drink wouldn't hurt! Don't be a stuffed shirt! Have one on me!"
Don't fall for that. Don't say, "Play it again, Sam!" It takes a bit of muscle to get started but with practice you can start aggressively looking on the bright side, on the positive side and ignoring the negative stuff. Pick up a flower. Say "Ain't that grand!" and do the same with a cloud. Then pat yourself on the back for the progress you've made already, consider it like an investment- in yourself. And each day that goes by that investment, you, becomes more valuable. Your Winston Churchill said it best: "Never surrender!"
W.