Well I guess I'm a little more upset about this than I thought. I've been sitting in bed all morning doing a lot of self loathing and crying. I'm going to get up and take a shower and go meet my husband for lunch. I just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other and before I know it I'll have more time under my belt. I so badly did not want this to be part of my story. I really didn't want to slip like that, I feel so ****** about it. Physically, mentally, emotionally. I just feel pretty ******. But I can feel ****** and be sober I guess. Maybe tomorrow will be better.