Ok, some of you may or may not have seen my original post in the newbie section. My mom had breast cancer surgery and was prescribed Oxycodone/APAP #30. I stole 5 earlier. After about an hour I felt happy, no physical or emotional pain, no anxiety and a wonderful feeling. It's now 9:30 PM and I am still at my parents house and the percocets are in the same place and my mom is sleeping. The pain is back, emotional and physical, bad feelings, down, etc. I could easily swipe a few more and get that feeling back again. No physical pain would be great. A nice feeling is all I ask for. I saw the phsyciatrist today and told her the truth. She recommends me telling my mom to hold on to her medications because temptation is too great. They know I have a substance abuse problem, why are they leaving them out there for me to drool over. When I take them I know the feeling is only temporary. It was discussed whether or not I should go back on Suboxone but I don't like the way they make me feel, too drowsy. Any suggestions would be much appreciated. My logic is I'm in pain, I need them, I want them, but if I take more she might notice and why are they out there. Am I on the road to slip up again? I don't want to have another overdose. Why can a stupid pill make you feel so good. Isn't that what I deserve, to feel good about myself? Thank you
