I haven't found a higher power in AA either. I've been there for 6 weeks - for now I stay away from drinking because when I think back on my drinking days - I was so sick and f*cking tired of feeling like crap, covering for myself at work, gaining weight, acting like an idiot when drinking, feeling like crap all the time, hungover, causing drama, decreased work productivity, worrying about losing my job, starting fights with my boyfriend, spending money on alcohol - geesh this is getting long.
Now all of that is gone. I can drink anytime I want - I just can't drink moderately or safely, so I have to refuse it. In the meantime I am burning up my coffee maker because I always want a "special drink" - and it's a decent substitute (I had to buy supplemental decaf). I also took up light smoking again (I know not a good habit) but you don't hear anyone getting arrested for driving while smoking.
Best of luck to you for giving up the high cost of low living.