glad you are here.
i can only offer encouragement in the fact that you've made it 7!!!! years sober. just imagine how miserable your life would be if you were drinking for 12 years instead of 5?
would you be able to accomplish all you have done so far?
now, it's time to put another 7 years in your sobriety box. if you are not yet ready for AA, read up on AVRT this is something you can start practicing today on your own. many people here have had success with this method.
start a new and healthy lifestyle in addition to practicing abstinence. shed those lbs off, become your old, happy self. not all is lost. you've done it before and you can do it again.
exercise, good nutrition and perhaps some group activity such as boxing, yoga or training for a half-marathon will give you a new meaning and less "cultish" groups support.
welcome to SR family. please continue to post and share. we can all learn a lot from you and you'll find lots of great advice and support here.
p.s. not to sound negative, but let this be a reminder to all of us (including myself) that moderation will not work, even after so many years of sobriety.