a better day
So, today is a better day which is funny because it's dull and rainy outside. I have to work and i've been alone all day aside from the casual interaction between peers in two of my classes. I am surprisingly calm and collected today. Last night my recovering boyfriend hadn't talked to me all day which had eaten me up, but he finally did and he's was much more considerate. For once, without him actually being there to warm me up, i felt whole. As a complete person without a facade i had to impose upon others but a natural contentment for life which i hope to hold dear while in this process of being supportive to my boyfriend. I know, i know that it's not a lot. I'm not asking for a lot, i'm asking for baby steps towards a better life and one with him in it, and i'm glad i found something in the mess i mentally surrounded myself in yesterday. lets just hope it continues.