For me they finally did amandaw - mainly because I was given great advice here. I was so filled with guilt and remorse that it was almost threatening my sobriety. I was advised to give myself a break - to be kind & patient with myself. I had worked so hard to get sober, but I was sabotaging myself with regret. I needed to focus on the great future I had ahead of me. If I stayed with one foot in the past I'd never heal and move forward.
It took awhile, but I finally got tired of reliving the past. I knew that drunken fool wasn't the real me. She was gone and never coming back. I let myself come alive again and grow into the person I was meant to be. You'll go through many phases as you mend - and yes, you will be able to forgive yourself.
